Michele Whitacre Photography

Tuesday, September 24, 2013

Self-Portrait | September 2013

I used to be a chronic sufferer of "I'll Be Happy When" Syndrome. You know the one, it goes something like this: I'll be happy just as soon as I... grow up, graduate from high school, graduate from college, get a job, quit my job, become my own boss, go back to college, lose 20 lbs, get married, get divorced, buy a house, sell a house, live where it doesn't snow, adopt a dog, adopt a cat, etc, etc, etc, etc.

For years, I actually believed that I would, in fact, be happy once I had traversed my way through whatever hardship I believed was keeping me from my happiness. I would picture my future self on the other side of the perceived obstacle full of contentment and be sure that if I just hung in there that perfect life was waiting for me.

But no matter how hard I pictured that perfect life, it never showed up.

There was always something else waiting right around the corner that I needed to "get through" before I was going to be truly happy. As the months turned into years and the things I had managed to get through began piling up without resulting in the happiness I was positive was coming, I starting losing faith in the notion that I ever would be happy and content with my life.

Because let's be honest for a minute. After you've moved across the country FOUR. DIFFERENT. TIMES. in search of a happiness that you never found, you can't help but realize that perhaps there is a major flaw in your theory.

Once I realized that the happiness I'd been promising myself wasn't actually waiting around the corner like I'd always believed, I just gave up. I quit believing. I quit hoping. I quit dreaming. I quit planning. I quit living. And I've been doing nothing but going through the motions of life ever since.

Only I didn't realize that I was doing it. Until now.

So, why the wake up call all of a sudden?

I just turned 39 a few days ago. 39!

And I just might be a wee little bit freaked out about that.

When you reach the point where you no longer know if you have more years ahead of you than you have behind you, it changes the way you view things. I'm starting to realize that I need to take a good hard look at my life and decide what needs to go, what needs to stay, and what needs to change. I need to figure out how to find peace with myself and my life because I refuse to enter the first year of my 40s the same way I entered the last year of my 30s.

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Saturday, September 21, 2013

BBL 2012-2013 | Become a Regular

#1 BECOME A REGULAR

Why did I include this on my Bucket List?

I've been struggling to feel at home since I relocated to Phoenix, and I thought that if I started visiting some place on a regular basis where I got to know the other people who were also regulars (or workers) there maybe it would help.

Was the experience what I had hoped it would be?

I didn't accomplish this in quite the way I imagined, so it wasn't exactly what I had in mind. However, it still feels great to feel "at home" some place.

The details...

When I put this on my Birthday Bucket List, I was thinking something along the lines of becoming a regular at the gym, or a yoga class, or a book club, or a hiking club, or the library, or maybe a Saturday morning brunch spot. It wasn't until I was looking back over my 2012-2013 list in preparation for my 2013-2014 list that I even realized I had accomplished this item without even intending.

Oddly enough, the place where I have turned into a regular is the spa where I get my nails and toes done every few weeks. After being a client there for the past 8-9 months, I am greeted by name when I walk in the door. They know when it has been longer than usual since I've been in and comment that they haven't seen me in a while. They know what services I usually have done, and even know what polish colors I usually pick - like at my last visit when I picked out a color much lighter than I usually do and the technician painted one nail, only to stop and say that it was too light and went over and picked a darker color that was the exact color I had in mind only the one I picked had been deceiving in the bottle.

Do you want to see my entire 2012-2013 Birthday Bucket List? You can find it here. Or did you miss my 2011-2012 Birthday Bucket List? You can find it here.

Friday, September 20, 2013

Phoenix School of Law | Student Head Shots

I once again had the great privilege of returning to Phoenix School of Law to take head shots for more of the dedicated future attorneys who attend school there. This is only a portion of the photos from my visit, so stay tuned for more head shots coming soon.

It was such a pleasure getting to meet and chat with all of these awesome individuals, and I just want to tell them all thank you for allowing me to take these photos. Good luck with the rest of your law school studies and future careers, everyone!

Meet Kelly...

Chantel...

Adam...

Nancy...

Sasha...

and Paulina...

Want to see more? You can find past Phoenix School of Law Student Head Shot photos here and here.

Friday, August 30, 2013

Self-Portrait | August 2013

Earlier in the month Kevin and I spent a long weekend at a cabin we rented in Prescott to celebrate our anniversary. We had a blast and really enjoyed our trip. But, I am one of those people who needs to leave the house spic and span because I can't stand returning to a big mess. So I spent the days leading up to the trip doing a ton of laundry to make sure everything was caught up before we left, and the days immediately following the trip trying to get through all the laundry from when we were gone.

To add to the insanity, we adopted our newest fur babies right before we left and picked them up from the rescue the day we returned. A few days later, we sadly discovered that they both have ringworm. If you're not familiar with it, ringworm is a skin fungus that cats, dogs, and humans can all get and it is super contagious. The only cleaning product known to kill it is bleach. So, I am washing and bleaching all of the kittens' bedding every day, along with ours and the dogs', trying to get Daisy and Gatsby healed up and trying to prevent the rest of us from getting it.

All of that added up to make me feel like I'm pretty much living in the laundry room these days! So, it seemed rather fitting to capture a photo of me in the laundry room for this month's self-portrait...

I realized after I had taken the photo, that I look like I am reading the washer instructions. I really do know how to do laundry! I was really just trying my best to get a photo where I was actually visible in that tiny room and this was the best I came up with.

Did you miss some of my past self-portraits? Clicking here will take you to all of my self-portrait blog posts. Clicking here will take you to my self-portrait Facebook album.

Wednesday, August 28, 2013

Phoenix School of Law | Student Head Shots

Ever since my last trip to Phoenix School of Law, the requests have been trickling in for me to return to take more student head shots. I was able to make arrangements with the library to sneak in a handful of students before classes start up again next week and things start to get busy at the school. So, I have to say a huge thanks to each of these students for being willing to give up some of their precious remaining vacation time for these sessions!

Please allow me to introduce you to these dedicated future attorneys.

Meet Bonnie...